And what if by not asking - you don't know how everyone else truly feels anyway? Have they also misjudged the situation?
How does the worst case scenario weigh against the best case scenario? How does the worst case weigh against just the most neutral outcome?
Probability. But all based on guesses. Your own guesses. And isn't it your own judgement that got you into this in the first place?
So who do you trust? Obviously, you can't trust yourself - because your judgement must be flawed to be here in the first place. So, you talk to those you trust, and you gauge and balance the responses. You seek advice, attempt to implement it, and hope for the best. You begin compiling data on inputs and outcomes.
Because your heart is not in it. It has become about the numbers.
This is why love is a choice. The love of fluttering hearts and flushed cheeks fades to a knowing smile and fresh coffee. Sometimes the best that can be mustered is doing only what is needed. And that's ok.
But you can't just shut down. And leave me alone. All alone. Feeling broken.
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