Allowance

I am tired of being angry.
I want to be happy.
I want to yell and scream to the world -
I DON'T WANT IT TO BE THIS WAY.

I want to tell everyone that I have tried
With every breath
With every bone in my body
With every beat of my heart
To fix everything

But
I
Can’t
Fix
Everything.

I can’t fix
Someone else.

I can’t change
Anyone
Except myself.

And I have changed myself
So much
To fit into
Another’s space
That
I
Don’t
Know
Who
I
Am
Anymore

I am allowed
To feel broken
I am allowed
To feel hurt
I am allowed
To feel.